next door

envy
its contagious
I want
everything I can't have have

the grass is
always greener
always greener
so much greener on the other side..
of the fence

I hope that no one sees
what envy's done to me
every time I look outside
it takes another piece of my pride

bills
are piling up
Goddamn 
I think I've had enough

I've had it
up to here..
I cant take 
another year

Ive got
no confidence
Ive got
no self esteem
Ive got 
no confidence in me
nothing left of me

I live in a house thats exactly like the house that's,
right next door
Next door there's a man who's exactly like the man,
I want to be
But I'm not him
he's not me
and I'm not him
oh that'll never ever be me